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11:29 AM - Monday, Aug. 02, 2010 Why after all the shit I went thru with him? Because we click. Its a lame answer but I'm not in the mood to be mushy and I like that. We just do I look at him and I see all the problems we are gonna have in the future and then I see all the freaking fun times we will have to and I'm so damn glad I can see both and not just one. Thats so important to me right now. Before I saw all the bad and I had no way of knowing how I would come out of it. I was sinking becuase I couldnt let myself trust things would be ok. i was just really really scared. I really hate admitting that. Nothing has really changed though... our relationship is good right now because of the communication we have with each other Now. We didnt have it this good then even though we connected we still had not found our own wavelength and it made us unable to get out what needed to be said, do things that needed to be done etc etc etc. We still have isssues... I have tried to put these things in prospective... tried to make sure that living with him was the right thing to do and determine a timetable for when a good time would be. But I realized a week agao life is just too short for surety... in my mind that sucks since I like to be 99% sure of most things but right now I'm gonna enjoy the newness and when it wears off I will find something else because I want the same thing he wants and I want it with him no matter how much it might hurt when we fight or how hard it will be to deal with kids I still want it.
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