Dreams that make you think

Wednesday, Jan. 14, 2009 @ 7:37 AM

I had a strange dream last night

I dreamt me and a bunch of friends went to a funeral. I'm not sure why we were all in a van but it was like we were coming from out of town. It was raining and we decided we would stop at James house and stay there until we had to move on. Well we get to this ugly bright yellow house. I mean it was horrible color and the house was not much better. But yeah I think it was like 10 of us staying with him and his girlfriend. I think they had other people living there too. So yeah it was a full house with us staying there and then it wa someone's birthday(someone I knew but for the life of me cant remember seeing a face) and we got them this huge piece of chocolate cake. Then after this person tells us they didnt want the cake we all started to eat it then got ready to leave again since it was sort of the next day and I guess we had only decided to stay one day. anyway I was leaving and James told me if I wanted the cake that was left over and I told him no since the little I had was enough becuz of my diabetes. then he started saying how he was sorry he never contacted me and I told him it was no big deal and that I would see him again the next time I heard from him. I said it kinda mean like and then I left with the group.

Ok so this dream tells me I have unfinished business and issues with my good friend James but it also tells me that things are shifting... changing... cuz for me i was always looking for him but this time he came to me. i also think this tells me that I dont really have to worry about "crush" like feelings anymore since even when he does me wrong I am hardly ever mad at him in dreams I have about him but I was pissed in this one and a little sad but I still left. I think I'm starting get to where I realize I dont need his type of friendship and I already have something good going for me while he is stuck where he is. the house looked kinda rundown and of course the color (which was truely horrible) tells me how i feel about him now.

So yeah it was a weird dream since it started out with a funeral but it help me kinda delve into how I was feeling I guess.

i think I had the whole funeral thing in my head becuz I went to a friend's rosary yesterday. It was nice. They played a slideshow for him and it brought back a lot of memories although it had been a solid year since I had talked to him last.

I think thats another reason for this dream I think I'm trying to tell myself not to let another year letting friends drift away. I'm upset with Sees but i dont want to some day hear he passed on and I didnt at least try and keep up some sort of communication. I'm not holding on to old feelings anymore.

I am April, but usually I'm called Lexi, Zan, or Apple. I'm 28 now.

I am located in Texas.

Love status: Taken

Loves: Anime, History, GUYS, Books, Movies

Hates: bitches, backstabbers, liars