Mercurial Me

Friday, Jul. 03, 2009 @ 7:21 PM

So I NEED my own space. ot just want it but need now. The little things that I could usually handle I cant seem to push down anymore

To be honest I am noticing I dont want to be around anyone anymore. No one not even my rents and I love them to death. I just cant stand all this constant closeness anymore. I love being in my room ALONE. I try really hard not to go out or talk on the phone or even think about other people once I get in my room. Sure I write Alex and I still end up on the phone with the persistant frineds but for the most part I am just here in my room ALONE. I have found some great deals for a one bedroom I'm even thinking about getting into an efficiency just to save a little more. Its all so I can just move away from everyone.

It seems like I'm trying to close myself off and I might be but for too long i wanted too much attention now its the last thing I want. I do still like to hang out but I prefer it on my terms which is few and far between. I think once i get the "alone" feel I will want to be around people again but yeah I want my own place so I can just be quiet and not have anyone around me.

Who knows this might change tomorrow.

I am April, but usually I'm called Lexi, Zan, or Apple. I'm 28 now.

I am located in Texas.

Love status: Taken

Loves: Anime, History, GUYS, Books, Movies

Hates: bitches, backstabbers, liars